ENTRY : lucky charm.

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oh. my. goodness. i just saw what that guy could eat. it looks lyk a mountain of rice nd a big bowl of soup (of course with other servings of dishes too) then what am i going to eat ltr ? HAHAHAH ! i'm a meanie i guess xP but my sister was shocked when she saw it too. oh wells.
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HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY CASXN ! <33

i was on tym to school today. hahahs. lessons were as normal. at break, shir helped me get food up to class as i had to complete my english speech, which in the end. ms lim didn't collect sheesh. anyhoo, emath seems interesting too me now. aye cindy ? lol. lonely 2 periods of MT at the last, jayne went off for netball match.

had to move instruments back to band room. then amath tutorial was so boring ? i fell asleep a few tyms :X that mr christopher didn't really have the hang of teaching us 4.8ers (the so-called 2nd best class lol) ? he's having us for 5 weeks ah ! hmmm. teaching skills not effective.

went home with shir after her 'busy' chat on the hfone, nd my 'busy' work with the decorations for tmr. we had nyce chocolate ice-cream too (:

gosh i miss that tym out tgt. hee =)

ENTRY : its all about us.

friday 2402
chatted on the hfone till 0430 around there. reached sch at 0750 - latest student. wahahah. sister rita call my mum up then she explain. but i still got that referral form, urgh. haha ! everyone were surprised when i step into the classroom, even the tcher. too tired out last nyte ? heh. band girls left class early ltr.

the big day of the concert (: makeups. rehearsals. smiles. thoughts. it went well ? i'm so glad because we played our parts well -relieve in that sense. JDH showed a 'thumbs up' sign at our direction. our efforts paid off ! nd the best was when SIR CAME TO SEE US ? omgg. we happily cried for that moment (kind of embarrassing. i still remember the scene) how we miss him so. cheryl gave me a pretty pink rose i lyk ! parents fetched me home after everything's over ehehehhehs. alrd close to midnyte.

"faith nd fear don't mix-"

saturday 2502
woke up around 1415 ? lol. too tired ytd nyte that's why. then lazed arount till 1640 to prepare myself (: hees. then got called up nd went off to bugis. had a nyce tym with him ? walk nd walk nd walk HAHA. prints. food. so effing cute ! :DD then train home. back at 2210 lidat, but mum still not home lo ? aiyo make me rush only ahahs. but then had to go to macs buy fries nd burger for sister nd cousin. lalas man.

today 2602
now is 0127 i haven't sleep ! haha. ltr have to go church class then got tuition too :\ ahhhh. OH YAY ! studying with cindy (girlfriend) too [: nd i have to go back to renovating house again to help out ? sighs. we'll see about it ? till then.

_would my someone help me get a cute plushy from arcades by himself ?
treat me to sweet stuff ?
buy me little gifts nd all ?
nd care to get me prettaye roses too ?
i would love. hahah. forget it.

ENTRY : cut my wrist to bleed-

OMFG. my pimple wont get away lahh ? sighs.

was late again for church last sunday hehh. so i only had mass nd tuition (: went to tamp with syy to eat ajisen ramen yummy ! very spicy hees. -thumbs up. sent syy to her bus stop nd wait for her bus with her. mum wants me to see the renovating house so they fetched me over after that. it's pretty nyce with the platform nd big wardrobe :DD i'm liking my new room ! then we went over ps to see furnitures too ? ate at ya kun nd this shop at bugis. lalas man eat so much (x

ytd was MT prelim for mid-yr ? i hope i do well, no flunking. super difficult pls >:( then bio lesson nd cca. so effing fuck. we had to do duty again ! lyk wth always pick on my section. hmpfs. forget it. had dinner with karen nd shir at sumo's when it ended. yumm mmms ! met up with mum to go back to the house again to discuss with the designer. reached home late nd tired. gosh i even had homeworks lahh ?

that explains why i was late to school today nd couldn't escape. 4th tym alrd :\ had spot checks - i hid my hfone under my skirt ! lol. i felt guilty so i let the prefect confiscate my buffer nd powder instead ? hees. attire checks - nails. earrings. urgh. had to do my plan during recess nd after school. sheesh. rtc was packed with students today hahahahs FULL HOUSE ! quite fun eh. but person-in-charge kind of a meanie :X hmm.

legion meeting today till late, then went home alone lyk most of the tyms ): took the train home but stopped at lavender for 33 mins or so ! haha because a friend surprisingly called nd we chatted for a while hees. oh there was this security guard who kept patrolling around me because i was wandering up nd down the platform with a hfone LOL.


OH. today sister nd cousin just notified me of this news they heard on tv. the one on the contact lense solution ? IM AFRAID ! i'm lyk using that brand ryte now lahh. -prays. better throw away fast.

i'm in a dilemma nd stress ? sighs. problems lead to more problems.

ENTRY : matching chemistry.

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY CARMEN =)

off to town in the evening. met my mum there at HARU scene nd i had a fringey trim lol. then jojo, the hairdresser, styled it up abit (but the next morning i washed my hair alrd). bought carmen's little present from taka (: i hope she liked it eh ? 'kisskiss' ahahs. then had a quick shopp at forever21, we each got a top ! though mine is simply plain. hees.

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i didn't know there was band performance for assembly in the morning :X how retarhded can things get ? heh. few of the lower secondary students kept cheering lyk mad monkeys. school was boring till it makes me wanna fall asleep. whats with some friends anyway ? forget it. oh for 'sop' we had to evacuate to the field under the blazing hot sun. lalas man. after eng tutorials was band practice. JDH pressurized fhorn section ): while thinking about life, i was almost on the verge to cry on my way home. that can explain why i was effing quiet in the bus towards my friends. sighs.

"no one understands me better than myself"
i went to indulge in sweets nd chocolates. then go to sleep without completing the homeworks for tmr. how lovely.

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left classes earlier by 4 periods ! woohoo. got to skip the geography test as well as social studies. we had concert rehearsals at VCH with the other cca groups. though to my dismay that the area was pretty small as compared to the esplanade (duh), but i'm very impressed with the acoustics :DD ehehehhehs. gosh it's worrying tym now though. what if i can't play well on that day ? ahh.

went home after that. my life is just so repeatedly boring nd clueless ? i better get going then. tatas.

ENTRY : love is in the air-

HAPPY VALENTINE'S PEOPLE !
nd happy 1st mth to us hunns <3

was late to school (third tym lol) nd went to rtc, but i didn't return back there during break ahah. everyone was busy sorting things out in class ! how lovely. thanks sweeties for the little gifts received !


_ the playboy bracelet from jaslyn nd chuwen.
_ the pretty necklace from geraldine.
_ the nyce stickynotepad from joanne.
_ the heart balloon nd pen from jayne.
_ the green strawheart from genevieve.
_ the mini heart balloon nd message bottle from shir.
_ the lipbalm nd sweet from chantel.
_ the small toy sunflower from cindy.
_ the toy rose from syy.
_ the powerpuff notepad nd message card from jeanette.
_ the crayon candle from carmen.
_ the blue strawheart from samantha.
_ the cookie from sheryl.
_ the wafer from felicia.
_ the gummies from ophelia.
_ the pencil from sam kee.
_ the time-out from betilda.
_ the goodiebag from victoria.
_ the home-made brownie from mell.
_ the chocolate-cookies from kelsey.
_ the goodies from tiffany.
_ the goodiebag from fiona (senior).
_ the home-made chocolates from clarissa (junior).
_ the goodiebag from cheryl.
_ nd many other candies from people which i alrd ate. LOL !

then many japanese girls from our 'sister school' at japan came down [: they are so kawaii nehs ! nd many of them looked mature nd pretty. we got to take pictures with them since they entered our class ahahs. (nd we've learnt some hand poses from them too lol) aynn beefy nd me skipped physics. we performed for band during assembly to the upper sec nd the japanese girls. lalas man !

then went for legion meeting awhile before going to tamp with cindy (yeahh gf !) we walked around the whole place lahh ? today was kind of boring due to the fact that we spotted too many couples around. make us feel awkward nd jealous HAHA. all those guys with girls nd their gifts with flowers :\ hmm. we talked all the way hahha. it was quite nyce to spent this day with a close friend ! we always end up tgt eh ? FATE AH. hahahaha !

all my sister got was sweets. nd more sweets. teehees.
silly girl.

ENTRY : black beads.

This is the story of a girl
Who cried a river and drowned the whole world
And while she looks so sad in photographs
I absolutely love her
my tp visit ytd was rather a bore. other of theDIRECTIONS went to nyp instead. rarrhs hehe. i'm thinking of either business or design course ? ahah i don't know ): then shir me cindy agnes nd chantel left for tamp. got some finger bites before heading home. nyce talk with gf on the way back. i bought Vday materials alrd. lalas pls, i'm fessed up over some matters. couldn't stay up for my homeworks.

today started out pretty bad. i got nagged at first thing in the morning ? urghs. then was getting late so i rushed out of the house to the train station. walking behind four bengs slows down my pace, had to overtake. stupid stuff happen :\ had eng tutorials after school. i hate pilo, damn the tcher so bias. i was late becaude of a meeting nd punishment was to sit on the floor ? wth. she even insulted my religion. sheesh what a woman. then not enough tym to complete my report but she made us hand in ? >:O aahhhhs.

the previous batch of sec4s came back for results (: though sadly i didn't get to see THEM ! ahahs. some did pretty good yeahh. top student got 7pts only. woahh man. so there was a declaration of half-day school on monday. ehehehhehs :DD

after band, went to get stuff with karen, shir nd joey ! kind of fun lahh. nd there was this effing funny part where SUPERR KURT CAME TO RESCUE ! lol. yeah mann.

(guy runs down the escalator to overtake us nd turned around)
me : (stares nd wonder in surprise 'woahh so tall' haha)
guy : urh excuse me ah..
me : (thinking that most prolly he looks lyk he needed to borrow something. hfone to call ?)
guy : my friend up there wants to make friend with you (weirdo expression)
me : HUH ? (so loud ahaha funny)
-we all stood in silence.
carrot : eh, let's go. loser lah. (something like that ?)
me nd shir : ..? (laughing)
-only joey wasn't clear of whatever's happening lols. she's effing CUTE lahh !

they love my chocolate pokey sticks ! hees (x i'll buy more next tym alrytes, yumyums.

"she woke up with hope but she only found tears;
And I can be so insincere making the promises never for real"
): - not a depressed girl pls.

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omgoshieee. i want a ADDIDAS JACKET pretty please ? heh natalie continue dreaming. Vday's coming in 4 days tym; money's gnna fly away again )x headaches pls. have to prepare so much stuff.
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This is the story of a girl
Her pretty face she hid from the world
And while she looks so sad and lonely there
I absolutely love her

ENTRY : tears of a paper heart-

my life is so screwed pls. there's no improvement in my studies. there's no big responsibilty in me as a leader. i can't handle relationships with people. tell me about it.

it is so hurtful to be left on the lurch you know ? nd are these really called friends whom i can trust ? oh where is family quality tym ? why can't i be ingenious like fuck ? i'm effing depressed. sighs.

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today was just fair. school lessons nd cca practice, homeworks nd pressure. i slack too much nd never change ): well, shirleen nd i stayed in class during break. it's nyce just having a good chat (: nd our worries for Vday with the gifts nd outings (who would want to spend it with me lahh crazy haha) thanks shir. but you know, life just goes on no matter what. we'll accept whatever comes nd go huh.

okay i shall do my homework nd study now. tmr's a busy day.
"i might be thinking too much, they say. but it feels like we're drifting. i don't wish to."
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maybe we weren't meant to be. it could just be a play that im included in huh. is this so ? or am i thinking too much. its fuck. because i'm in doubts, nd my intuition tells me it could end up this way. which i never wanted to be repeated like those past. so sorry. i don't want to cry. not even tear. for this i'm not so capable of. but why all this ? these guys are jerks to say they 'like' or 'love' nd halfway through they give u up. can anything else be more cruel to a girl then this ? leaving the heart to bleed death. i wanna scream.

mum's shouting again. sighs. she's often out against me for goodness knows why. could be that i'm a little rebellious alrd. ):
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jonathan ; yeahh okays i've read. don't worry it's all in the past. it does not need to be brought up again. he's doing pretty well i guess. nd im sorry i can't bring myself to like you the way you do, because i won't change the fact that i'll always treat you as a brother/friend only to this extend, you're not really my 'type' too. please understand alrytes ? call me a bitch or whatever but yes, this is all i have to say.

ENTRY : the big bang-

omg this is effing 'woahh'.

I AM A GRANDAUNT ALREADY LAHH.

ahahah. my niece (she's older than me) somehow gave birth this morning at around 4 ? she even caught a movie beforehand :\ cool huh.

went for visiting today (: ate alot alot of food until i didn't want dinner pls. then dad had to go to his pub alrd so me, sister nd cousin went to tiongbahru plaza. bought some stuff. got out gelatos too ! yummy :DD ehehehhehs.

honeyy msged me at nyte. misses. guess he's still out nd all. i was waiting for his reply since afternn ! meanie pig hahas. but i still love you dearest ((x

greed nd envy took over me. where's love ?

ENTRY : POOF it's gone.

third feb. HAPPY BIRTHDAY HANWEN ! :DD

decided that most prolly i would like to score 15 points nd below. get into a good polytechnic (sp or tp) nd take up design or business. might be different from some others so i sincerely hope that friends will stay tgt yeah ? (x

omg u know what. i'm in english tutorial ! HAHA did badly for my ppr 1 last year that's why. i also have extra chinese (for band 1s nd 2s) on wednesdays, as well as phy/bio lessons on thurdays. sheesh. my schedule's pretty packed.

late for school 2nd tym ! hahs tired ah. lunched at sumo house with jaslyn again after english tutorial today (: it was yummy. but the bengs there spoilt our mood ahah. we walked the whole of bedok central even to the supermarkets ! nd we left for compass pt ltr heh. sort of went on a foodhunt lahh. FOOD man.

Ps we're having school performance on 24th feb at VCH ! featuring concert band alrytes hehe. pls purchase tix from naat [: selling price at $10/- thanks.

HONEYY I LOVE ! hees.

"I can't only come to you this far ; there are still some things that we can't do. We're more than friends, but we're not a couple yet.

Should i cry or not ? is it me or you that think too much ? I'm not very convinced, nd i also start to suspect. The person in front of me, is he the same, real you ?

The evindence of love cannot be found. When should I go forward ? When should i give up ?" __ quotes from the song `ambiguity - ai mei.